This is my official day one. Day one of starting fresh on my diet, workouts, and look out on life. How has it been so far? Meh...nothing to go nuts about but i'm surviving so far.
I've followed my diet plan to a tee which is good. I find it's very easy during the day since I'm so busy with work anyways so my diet barely even crosses my mind. It's the nights that get to me. On the way home, frustrated in traffic, I start thinking of the foods I'd love to eat. Even though I know I shouldn't do it, I still think about it, which is horrible torture. I'm meeting with my trainer tonight so that definitly kept me on track.
As for my soul, it's been a rough day. A man who is a friend, but someone that I love deeply, is moving away for his career; and his gorgeous girlfriend is making the big move with him. I have been an emotional support to him. He didn't know what to do when his gf didn't want to go. I helped him with the right things to say to her to really think about being together forever. They are a wonderful couple and should be together. But...I think a part of me wanted him to ask me to go with him, rather then her who is unbelievably ungrateful of his love. Even though he would never be with me, a fantasy is always there, and now it's broken.
I need to start my own life. My own dreams. I'm stuck here to help my mom out (My Dad passed away 11 months ago, and she's dealing with her own sickness) but it's killing me. I don't want to be here. I don't want to live in this house anymore. I was my own world. I want to move to another city where I have friends, and where my career could take off. I need time for me. My potential is huge, I just need the place and space to grow.
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